Transformation

Life. Death. Rebirth. Transforming into the person you’ve been awaiting, it all takes grit and patience. Now, hear me out…

I’ve been a fighter my whole life. Growing up being the all-star athlete to the girl on fire, life has presented twists and turns that have shaped who I am. Most recently, the situations that became reality have had my mind up in a swirl – good and bad, all ONE big transformative experience.

My life’s my movie. I call the shots but unfortunately, let my mind get the best of me in recent months. Falling into fear, it’s been a ride that I’ve held onto a bit too tightly. Releasing my grip time and time again to begin transforming – it all reminds me of insects as they grow. A beautiful metamorphis takes place as they molt & shed their old skin. Kind of like how I’ve grown so much from my childhood; phasing in and integrating the good, bad, ugly to reshape the person I am today. It’s all trials and tribulations.

And through all the situations, it all comes down to choice. How you handle things. How you react. How you pick yourself up and try again. But most importantly, how you better yourself on the daily. It’s like an art form that you constantly progress at – it may not seem like you’re getting anywhere but when you zoom out, you realize you’ve come a long way!

The past 5+ months have been a situation of a lifetime. Bumpiest rollercoaster I’ve ever been on. Things went from joyous to horror to comedy and I’m at a place now where I’m not afraid. Fear and chaos are being subdued by laughter and smiles. Sure, there are days where I’m still down BUT even more days where I’m feeling like my old self; that’s a major win. It’s night & day from where it all began – all I’m looking for is that 💡 at the end of this dark tunnel.